Poetry

This poem was written by me demonstrating feelings at a certain point in my life. I hope you enjoy. 


when i say i've been through it
i've been through it.
bet you can't look past my smile & say you knew it
Is it cliche to say
i've come a long way
don't wanna dip in the past
for my memories sake
past the heartache , heartbreak
emotions hitting hard
something like an earthquake
now everyone goes through
rejection , neglection
but where was God when i asked for his protection 
maybe sinful ways turned him astray
lighting up this L to take the pain away
sorry to my mother , brother
i wish i could of been the daughter & sister you dreamt of me
but what i believe to be is that i was put on this earth
for a reason more than your eyes can see
i jus need your trust in me
yeah i f**** up
It's hard to count how many times
i've made you cry
countless lies
Just for some n*gga 
who was good to me only when he was between my thighs
how love so blind
all this wasted time
was not worth the pain
just another lesson to gain
depsite the rain
i have no one to blame
but myself... 
on this path it seems like im farther from heaven than hell
time on my side & and a soul full of dreams
that no one understands but me
Im starting to worry that i rush through life
forgetting to breathe.....
as i keep my composure
druken thoughts with a heart so sober.